'and i had this epiphany in the shower the other day - that love is not just a feeling, it's a choice!'
and she said it, my housemate, with such a sense of satisfaction it made me glad to know that she had that feeling of pieces falling into place. there is nothing like clarity achieved in the bathroom to help you settle into being a profound philosopher.
i forget that we all realise different things at different points in time.
two years ago, when lots of my friends started to get married, i freaked out because i felt young and was young (and still am young) and marriage is kind of scary and it's hard to know how to be a good support to someone when you are afraid for them.
and i wrote things to help. and i read things that helped.
and donald miller made sense of the incongruity of falling in love.
'I will give you this, my love, and I will not bargain or barter any longer. I will love you, as sure as He has loved me. I will discover what I can discover and though you remain a mystery, save God’s own knowledge, what I disclose of you I will keep in the warmest chamber of my heart, the very chamber where God has stowed Himself in me. And I will do this to my death, and to death it may bring me.
I will love like God, because of God, mighted by the power of God. I will stop expecting your love, demanding your love, trading for your love, gaming for your love.
I will simply love.
I am giving myself to you, and tomorrow I will do it again. I suppose the clock itself will wear thin its time before I am ended at this altar of dying and dying again.
God risked Himself on me. I will risk myself on you. And together, we will learn to love, and perhaps then, and only then, understand this gravity that drew Him, unto us.'
