protect, trust, hope, persevere

it is a tough thing to love properly a person you know you love deeply and dearly.

it is easy to gush rosewater words. but what's to stop them swiftly getting left behind as time goes on? at best our phrases can be a fleeting evocation of sincere sentiment. at worst, they can be the false lull of security in an affection which is here today and gone tomorrow.

it is much more difficult to patiently bear a beloved's blunders, to kindly dress their wounds, to do away with all the little things that shake us and cause us to covet and puff ourselves up in their presence, to respect their whole person rather than a single dimension, to stow away personal desire and satisfaction for their sake, to not just keep frustration to yourself but to work through it prayerfully and humbly and without pointing fingers, and to be consistent and constant in freely granting amnesty.

a love that is all those things cannot be shaken. but sometimes, often even, a proper love that is all those things is silent.

and not saying a word is hard because you can't be certain anyone will ever hear even though you are loving at the top of your lungs.